My first blog Dec 16
I have always been fascinated by colour and light and during my early days as an art student tried to express these qualities in my work. Then one evening, whilst sitting on a beach looking out to the horizon, I had an experience which would forever change my life. I spontaneously left my body and expanded to become the horizon. From that timeless moment, not only was my awareness of life changed, but also my art. I mention this because it was this experience of ‘merging to be one with infinity’, that completely transformed the way I perceived the world and life. As my artwork was my means of self-expression, and the experience so profound, I felt driven to try to visually express it. It was also so overwhelmingly ‘beautiful’, for want of a better word, the beauty of this moment had been indelibly printed in my consciousness and has always been an integral part of my perception of the world ever since.
I only arrived at the language to describe this experience after many years of study and reading on the subject, for at the time I had no prior knowledge of such experiences and so no preconceived ideas about it. By chance I came across a book ‘The Act of Creation’ by Arthur Koestler, where in it he described such experiences as ‘self-transcending’. It was reassuring to learn that I wasn’t the first person to have had such an experience! This led me to seek to expand my intellectual understanding of the subject and at the same time to continue to try to express the qualities of the experience in my art. I felt compelled to share my feelings of awe and wonder with others.
During the years following I became deeply involved in the study of creativity. After all, where do our ideas come from? Why are some people more creative than others? I learned that creativity isn’t only the domain of artists and great scientists, but everyone. It is our birth right. I began to more fully understand how our education system can help or hinder the development of human creativity. I became passionate about helping create an environment which allows for the unfoldment and fulfilment of human creative potential. Throughout my career as an art college lecturer, being able to witness individuals grow to become more than they had previously thought themselves to be, has been both a joy and a privilege. These themes have continued to weave themselves throughout my life, expressing themselves not only in my art and teaching, but also in my role as a mother, my spiritual life, and my travels as I have observed creative expression in other cultures. You will hear more about these themes as I continue to blog.
I have always lived near the sea. I love the sea. It’s as if it has pulled me like a magnet. Perhaps then it is no surprise that I encountered my self-transcending experience whilst sitting on a beach at Barry Island, South Wales all those years ago. The awesome nature of watching a fiery ball of sun rise from the seas horizon at sunrise, or watching it slowly descend into the horizon at the end of a day, or to simply observe the afterglow of colour in the sky above, never ceases to blow me away. I find taking time to observe such ‘movies of changing light and colour’ deeply nourishing. I also love music and dance, where the human body is used as the tool for creative expression, and enjoy attempting to capture such fleeting movements in my artwork. Such transient moments can act as a reminder of this amazing world and universe in which we live and what it means to be human. A reminder that there’s far more to this experience we call life, something we can tend to forget when we get caught up in our daily routines. I share a glimpse into the world through my eyes. I hope you enjoy.